The Birthday That Stole Everything
On my brother’s 25th birthday, my stepdad woke up visibly yellow with jaundice. The nagging stomach pain he felt was familiar enough, but this was something new. My mum rushed him to the hospital, leaving us to wait. At the time, the waiting didn’t feel unbearable. It was what came next that broke everything.
I remember looking at my brother, feeling bad for him. My stepdad had been in and out of pain for years, but it felt cruel that on a day meant for celebration, everything had changed.
When I heard the key in the door, I stood up without thinking, heart hammering. My mum’s face told me the truth before she spoke. She broke down. We all did, sitting on the kitchen floor. Pancreatic cancer. Terminal. A death sentence.
Years earlier, my mum had suspected his pancreas, due to the lack of explanation for his suffering. She said it more than once, quietly, insistently. She was brushed off every time. A pattern was forming, passed between appointments, superficial tests that led nowhere, reassurances that asked us to accept not knowing. Looking back now, it feels incredible to think something so serious was allowed to drift.
My step-dad repeated her concern during appointments – “My wife is a nurse and she thinks it’s my pancreas”. Each time, it was dismissed. They told us it would have shown up already. This reassurance was not certainty – it was an assumption. Many medical tests fail to pick up on problems in the pancreas, due to how deeply the organ is hidden in the body. But he kept pushing for scans, contending with his GP, each time he was disregarded.
This is where trust in medicine becomes dangerous. Not because doctors are malicious, but because uncertainty can be allowed to linger without anyone taking responsibility. Authority has a tone. It is calm, measured, practised – and it teaches you to doubt yourself before you ever doubt it. When further investigation is dismissed repeatedly, reassurance hardens into neglect.
Words That Couldn’t Reach Us
Two months passed in fragmented updates. Doctors drip-fed information that often contained contradictions. “Everybody’s cancer journey is different.” I rolled my eyes every time. It was hollow, a shield against the questions that mattered. Weeks of half-truths taught me how powerless words can be when your family’s future hangs in the balance. Later, I realised it was just the language of uncertainty trying, and failing, to offer comfort.
After a consultation, the doctors mentioned something in his liver. We knew instantly. The CT scan finally confirmed it: worse than we thought. Stage four. Less than a year.
By the time the truth was fully visible, there was no time left to question the words that had delayed it.
And This is Exactly Why Jess’s Rule Matters
Jess’s Law – the proposed “three strikes and rethink” rule is built on a simple premise: when a patient presents repeatedly with the same unresolved symptoms, the system should escalate, not soothe. Investigate, not dismiss. Listen, before it is too late.
Jess’s Rule was inspired by the tragic death of Jessica Brady, who died of undiagnosed cancer at 27 after more than 20 appointments with her GP practice failed to catch her illness. It’s supported by the Department of Health and Social Care, NHS England, and the Royal College of General Practitioners and aims to make sure no one is brushed off simply because their symptoms don’t fit a neat box.
My stepdad did not need another calm explanation from the GP claiming “we have done everything we can do”. He needed someone to say: this has happened too many times to be nothing.
Time is a Funny Thing
Life changed immediately. Plans that once felt mine, bright, free, unquestioned, now orbited around his illness. My mum, always the rock, became human, fragile, exhausted. Watching her carry grief while holding the rest of us together was both beautiful and unthinkable.
Cancer doesn’t just affect the person diagnosed. It rewrites the lives of everyone who loves them. Family dynamics fracture, priorities shift, and the illusion of control shatters. He was someone I always knew would love me in the way a parent does: unwavering, protective, steady. Realising that love will not be there for as long as I assumed is terrifying and profoundly painful.
I realised too many things, too quickly. He won’t be there to walk me down the aisle. He will never meet my children. He won’t be there for birthdays, anniversaries, Christmas mornings – the milestones that feel ordinary only because we expect them. We treat these moments as inevitable, built into the structure of a life. Cancer exposes how fragile that assumption is.
It also reshapes your relationship with medicine, replacing trust with doubt, and certainty with questions that come too late. Jess’s Law would not have been a miracle. But it might have been time. And in cancer, time is not abstract. Time is life.
Only the Weight of What Remains
Cancer unravels life in ways you cannot prepare for. It strips certainty and forces you to confront what you love, and what might be gone before you’re ready.
When medicine fails to be honest, there is no meaning to be made of the loss – only the knowledge that my stepdad’s life became shorter while we were being told everything possible had been done.
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