Books Every Fresher Should Read
Arts
6 views
6 views

Books Every Fresher Should Read

Anonymous - September 19, 2018
France in Fine Fettle
Sports
33 views
33 views

France in Fine Fettle

Anonymous - September 17, 2018
Dive into Brightonian Culture
Arts
30 views
30 views

Dive into Brightonian Culture

Anonymous - September 17, 2018
Oh, baby, baby, did you see Britney at Pride?
Arts
59 views
59 views

Oh, baby, baby, did you see Britney at Pride?

Anastasia Konstantinidou - September 15, 2018
265 Views

Laugh yourself out of the blues

Dear Badger, 

Depression has been a good, abusive friend of mine for the last four years. As with any friend, proximity was the greatest predictor of a sustained relationship. An immersion in the void. Indulging a reductionist and eliminative materialist perspective robbed anything of any value and brought a beautiful simplicity to the world; a case for abstaining.

Why ever should I metabolise drugs or entertain a counsellor to shut out a friend who had illuminated me to what I believed to be true regardless of my condition?

Why deal with suicidal feelings when those delivered a kind of ‘spiritual reprieve for the faithless?’ It felt less a condition and more a fact of life and even useful tool, which happened to constantly berate you.

For those depressively minded, I think a case stronger than regaining a now lagging position in the pursuit of happiness, is needed. For me that was but a superficial stimulation of the reward system. The life of a biological machine is the life of a drug addict, be that through activity or extraneous drugs after all. No one was going to convince me participation in this thresher held any value. I was out of the rat race for both happiness and societal progression. It didn’t matter if I wasn’t good enough for that job, in my studies, in talking to people… you’re not going to get much fascination for a supernova out of a person whose life is a black hole.

How does one escape that kind of abusive relationship of the mind? Distractions are important; limiting the content of consciousness. Something I used to just sleep during the day to achieve. Instead of simply tuning out, though, filling life with people to contextualise existence. Confidence through emptiness. Talk to people, what does it matter? Activity in societies and exercise to give a rush of hormones and dose of meaning. Both contributing to at least an illusion of identity. That’s a framework you can at least build on. More than the nothing you had before.

Routines filled with people who actually care for you when you can’t. Those people things can also contradict your pseudo philosophical pessimistic drivel, in response to which you can give them a hearty handshake to hold on for dear life as your worldview shatters around you.

What I really needed was a shift of perspective. Performing stand up was the real saviour. It provided a stage to talk. A form of counselling that I needed at the time. One that made me feel I was doing something I could talk about rather than labouring on a dearth of things happening.

To quote Rashi, “receive with simplicity everything that happens to you.” Stand up taught me to accept everything with good (or bad) humour. These things are funny. Yes, we write ourselves into corners, tell ourselves the corners mean something and get extinguished. Like the shittest game of Monopoly, an already awful game. But that’s funny. That was a bit funny at least?

Henry Ewins 

Get the best viral stories straight into your inbox!

Don't worry, we don't spam
Books Every Fresher Should Read
Arts
6 views
6 views

Books Every Fresher Should Read

Anonymous - September 19, 2018
France in Fine Fettle
Sports
33 views
33 views

France in Fine Fettle

Anonymous - September 17, 2018
Dive into Brightonian Culture
Arts
30 views
30 views

Dive into Brightonian Culture

Anonymous - September 17, 2018
Oh, baby, baby, did you see Britney at Pride?
Arts
59 views
59 views

Oh, baby, baby, did you see Britney at Pride?

Anastasia Konstantinidou - September 15, 2018

Leave a Reply

Join the Badger Team

Apply today!

Latest Posts

Books Every Fresher Should Read
Arts
6 views
Arts
6 views

Books Every Fresher Should Read

Anonymous - September 19, 2018

Starting university comes with both exciting but potentially daunting changes, with both moving away from home and studying at degree level posing to be two new challenges.…

INCREDIBLES 2: The Sequel with a Feminist Twist
Film & Theatre
20 views
Film & Theatre
20 views

INCREDIBLES 2: The Sequel with a Feminist Twist

Anonymous - September 18, 2018

One key film in the development of anyone who grew up in the early 2000s was The Incredibles (2004). It’s comedy, vibrancy, and general sense of fun…

France in Fine Fettle
Sports
33 views
Sports
33 views

France in Fine Fettle

Anonymous - September 17, 2018

Prior to the start of the quadrennial tournament this summer, football fans across the world grew sceptical over Russia’s credentials and ability to host the most prestigious…

Dive into Brightonian Culture
Arts
30 views
Arts
30 views

Dive into Brightonian Culture

Anonymous - September 17, 2018

Boredom is impossible when you throw yourself into everything this weird and wonderful city has to offer. The specific and unique cultural wonders of Brighton are indeed…

Oh, baby, baby, did you see Britney at Pride?
Arts
59 views
Arts
59 views

Oh, baby, baby, did you see Britney at Pride?

Anastasia Konstantinidou - September 15, 2018

During this year’s Pride Festival, Brighton had the honour of welcoming international pop star and voice of the early 2000s, Britney Spears, to the main stage. Undoubtedly,…

Union obliterates the debate – unwritten requirement used to shut down free speech debate
Campus News
1130 views1
Campus News
1130 views1

Union obliterates the debate – unwritten requirement used to shut down free speech debate

Jordan Wright - April 27, 2018

Student society Liberate the Debate’s most recent event was cancelled over a lack of compliance with the Students' Union's (USSU) requirement for a neutral chair - a…

Sussex Lecturer Accused of Making Transphobic Comments Ahead of Brighton Trans Pride 2018
News
60 views1
News
60 views1

Sussex Lecturer Accused of Making Transphobic Comments Ahead of Brighton Trans Pride 2018

Jessica Hubbard - September 15, 2018

Kathleen Stock, a philosophy Lecturer at Sussex, was accused of making transphobic comments in July 2018. This followed various interviews and blog posts by Stock. Stock told…

Welcome 2018 Freshers!
Campus News
65 views
Campus News
65 views

Welcome 2018 Freshers!

Billie-Jean Johnson - September 15, 2018

Ah, Freshers. You’ve no idea the amazing year you have ahead of you! As you read this now, you’ve probably met your flatmates and maybe even met…

A conversation with Kathleen Stock on Transgender Identity
Opinion
57 views
Opinion
57 views

A conversation with Kathleen Stock on Transgender Identity

Jessica Hubbard - September 15, 2018

Kathleen Stock, a philosophy lecturer at Sussex University, met with controversy after criticising the government’s reform of the Gender Recognition Act (2004). The amendment would ‘de-medicalise’ the…

Verve Couture – Musicality, kitsch & ignition: the beginning of a series
Arts
384 views
Arts
384 views

Verve Couture – Musicality, kitsch & ignition: the beginning of a series

Ricardo Reverón Blanco - June 17, 2018

Pictured: Zac Black At Proud Cabaret audiences were spellbound as if at night at the circus, yet this was not like Angela Carter’s magical realist novel; Verve…

Fleabag on stage at The Old Market – review
Arts
388 views
Arts
388 views

Fleabag on stage at The Old Market – review

Florence Dutton - June 11, 2018

[caption id="attachment_35513" align="alignnone" width="2400"] Fleabag at Soho Theatre[/caption] Last Monday at 8pm at Brighton’s The Old Market, I sat myself down in my theatre seat eagerly awaiting…

Fleabag preview
Arts
362 views
Arts
362 views

Fleabag preview

Florence Dutton - June 2, 2018

[caption id="attachment_35513" align="alignnone" width="2400"] Fleabag at Soho Theatre[/caption] Following the mass success of the Bafta award-winning BBC Series, DryWrite and Soho Theatre are about to hit the…

Brighton Festival: Ezra Furman at the Dome
Arts
427 views
Arts
427 views

Brighton Festival: Ezra Furman at the Dome

Georgia Grace - June 1, 2018

Having completed my final semester of university with modules on punk history and queer arts, it was fitting that I rounded off my end-of-assessment celebrations by attending…

Arts
444 views

The Tempest review

Georgia Grace - May 30, 2018

As the sun begins to set over Hove Green, tinnies of Red Stripe are cracked open, tartan blankets are strewn, and families tuck into their picnic hampers.…

A Glass Half Empty review
Arts
383 views
Arts
383 views

A Glass Half Empty review

Georgia Grace - May 27, 2018

For those of us coming to the end of another year of university study, the prospect of careers, marriages and babies may seem a long way off.…

DollyWould at The Old Market review
Arts
360 views
Arts
360 views

DollyWould at The Old Market review

Alex Hutson - May 27, 2018

Sh!t Theatre’s DollyWould is a hilarious, thoughtful and experimental performance piece. The award winning show has the Sh!t Theatre duo integrating comedy, storytelling, personal experience and music.…

UCU Launch Petition to End the ‘Hostile Environment’ at Sussex
Campus News
545 views
Campus News
545 views

UCU Launch Petition to End the ‘Hostile Environment’ at Sussex

Billie-Jean Johnson - May 26, 2018

The Sussex branch of the University and College Union (UCU) has launched a petition calling for Vice-Chancellor Adam Tickell to end the 'hostile environment' at Sussex. The…

Arts
312 views

Shakespeare in the sun – The Tempest preview

Georgia Grace - May 24, 2018

In a world of dystopian King Lears and female Hamlets, Shakespeare’s classics are constantly being reimagined for the modern day. There’s something oddly refreshing then about the…

Review: Nick Cave Double Bill at The Old Market (TOM’s Film Club)
Arts
909 views
Arts
909 views

Review: Nick Cave Double Bill at The Old Market (TOM’s Film Club)

Sophie Coppenhall - May 23, 2018

What a phenomenal contrast these two films present when watched side-by-side. In essence, together they are capable of tracing inner and outer metamorphoses of their subjects. The…

Dollywould at The Old Market preview
Arts
369 views
Arts
369 views

Dollywould at The Old Market preview

Alex Hutson - May 22, 2018

From the 22nd May - 25th May 2018 DollyWould will be showing at The Old Market. An exciting new show, presented by Sh!t Theatre, who won the…

Exhibition: Io-sono Fedilouu
Artist Focus
452 views
Artist Focus
452 views

Exhibition: Io-sono Fedilouu

Ricardo Reverón Blanco - May 16, 2018

Last week artist Fedilou made her debut exhibition in the downstairs space of Morelli Zorelli, a quaint vegan Italian restaurant in Hove, featuring a collection of intimate…